It gets so so tiring just sitting back and watching someone raking advantage of your making you their second choice. Even though they are ALWAYS your number one choice. You'll never be their first choice. Ever.  But you continue making them yours in the hope they change.
I know he never will and I know it's always going to be this way but if it were any other way, he wouldn't be the man I fell in love with 442 days ago, would he?